Heading for the disaster - Date with GMAT

In precisely two hours or so I will sit in my car and head towards the GMAT exam center. Oh yeah, after postponing this exam for almost 2 years the time has come that I should look into the eyes of GMAT. The important question is, am I ready to do so? With the heavy heart I must admit I am most certainly not ready to face the GMAT.... not today. Then why the hell I am inclined towards giving the GMAT? Well to be frank I have decided that I have to give the GMAT no matter what before the year end and I guess the time has come to complete what I have decided. Moreover so far postponing the exam has not helped me and somehow I am not able to tune my mind or get myself disciplined enough to prepare for the exam. I know it is hard to explain in words but this is what it is.

So what happen and why I was not able to prepare? Was it my work schedule, home duties, wife, kids blah blah blah? To answer that, no one should be blamed as it is me who should be held responsible for not preparing for the GMAT. It is me and only me from the beginning as I was not able to come with a solid prep plan and I was not able to teach myself to be a disciplinarian to study for the GMAT.

There are very few out there who actually know what they are going to score in the GMAT or exams like that. Some of them are the ones who have studied relentlessly for the exam, put in hundreds of hours for the preparation, solved thousands of problems, and faced my practice tests and they are the one who can estimate to some extent what there score might be. On the other hand there are also some people like me who haven't study a bit and knows what they are going to score. If today is my lucky day then I will score in the 400s, if there is a miracle that had to happen, then in 500s, but I am most certainly sure that I might end up in upper 200s to lower 300s. Now who can be so sure about getting such freaky percentiles ? Well I am, because I know my skills are pretty rusty and this is what I will be getting.

I am sure, this might be one of the most unusual posts you have ever read. Oh common at least give me some credit for writing this and admitting this to the World. Time to wrap up as I need to move out and head towards the fighting ring with no gloves or protective gear, forget about the practice as I haven't done any for this match.That's it folks, I move towards the fighting arena where the GMAT is waiting to slaughter me. I can't ask for your best wishes as luck favors the prepared mind and I am not prepared ....not for this one and most certainly not today.

I will fight back !! (with GMAT or with myself that I haven’t decided).